"In those days I had this secret game. When I found myself alone, I'd stop and look for a view- out of a window, say, or through a doorway into a room-any view so long as there were no people in it. I did this so that I could, for a few seconds, at least, create the illusion the place wasn't crawling with students, but that instead Hailsham was this quiet, tranquil house where I lived with just five or six others." Page 90
Kathy's personality, I can't help but notice, resembles my personality. She enjoys solitude, and the company of a few intimate friends. I often need time to myself to collect and organize my thoughts. I, as well, prefer the company of a few good friends rather than a noisy crowd of acquaintances. I just don't get the same enjoyment in carrying idle chat with what are practically strangers as I do when I am deeply absorbed in stimulating conversation with those who I feel most relaxed around. Kathy is partial to tranquility, as I am. I cherish times when there is nothing going on, when there is an overpowering silence that induces a tranquil trance in which my mind is free to wonder wherever it pleases, with no anxieties to hijack my train of thought. A quiet place is conducive to critically thinking and problem solving. I think this is why I abhor the times in which I go to a big, crowded event with masses of chatty individuals.
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